21 October 2008
I know i am not the only one in the whole wide world who is suffering, but a lot of times i ask myself, why is God trying to make me go through all this? Don't you think we have suffered enough? Don't we deserve something from being able to survive all this suffering all these years? Why are all these happening to me? Why do i have to go through them? What did i do to deserve them?
I know i may be selfish when i ask those questions. I admit to that.
I always tell myself di sebalik segalanya, ada Hikmahnya...
But when will it come? Am i happy the way i am?
Will there be a happy ending for us?
For so long we have suffered.. I have put up and tolerated so much, the feeling is like i've taken in a bomb and trying to prevent it from exploding out of me... Maybe it's part of my personality to care about others' first before myself. But i can't help it. I am already used to rather make others' happy, even if i'm not.. I didn't care of the consequences.
I have put up a brave front so many times because i don't really like to show others this weak side of me who wants to be cared. It's only when it's too much for me to take, is when tears will start to flow.
Life for me had and will never be a Cinderella story.
It's just too fictional to be happened to an ordinarily average girl like me.
the world will turn WILD.
11:56 PM
15 October 2008
Finally!! I have got the photos from the Chiangmai trip from Dian!! Yay!! There's actually 400+ photos.. but i'll only put some here..... enjoy. :)
at the airport- just checked in
first stop- tweechol botanical garden
Hahaha...idiotic postures.... (Queen Sirikit botanical garden)
the 3rd yrs with a backdrop of the whole of Chiangmai
Sawadee-kaa -in front of the Golden temple
Just reached the top of Mt Inthanon (it was so cold!)
at the highest point in Thailand
down the mountain a little for a waterfall
work it! show it!
at iBerry... the place was too cute lah!!
a view of a small part of the night market
us? tired from all the shopping, bargaining and walking!
at Chiangmai Airport... waiting for check-in....
Goodbye ChiangMai.............
the world will turn WILD.
7:53 PM
14 October 2008
Okay, today was like this. The lecturer opened the classroom, we all sat... 15mins later class was dismissed. Hahahhahaha... serious! Its because the notes weren't even ready at the Photocopy shop and since it was the first week of school, he just let us off!! Hahahahah.... We didnt even do anything...
Went to town for lunch with the girls...Had Ria Ayam Penyet at Lucky Plaza... Dian had to go off after that, so the 3 of us decided to watch a movie, that is House Bunny... Hahahhaha.... I have to say i didnt regret watching it at all...... we were laughing-our-heads-off during the entire movie!! Anna Faris playing the lead role, Shelly was the stereotype of a dumb blonde... She helped this nearly-broken-down sorority house back to shape by making the girls, well, popular.... Hahahha....... One part i liked the best was the voice she makes to remember other's names...hahahaha.... Everytime she does it, it would be hysterical! ............ Even Shahida who said that she didnt liked movies, didnt regret watching one with us.....
the world will turn WILD.
8:02 PM
13 October 2008
So, first day of school....well, technically it was our first day back to school for our final year in NP after what? 8 months away? I don't think we look like 3rd years even... haha.... i mean first day today, we had our i-think-we're-lost faces...hahahaha.... what to do...haiz....
First class of the day was WISP...not bad... no cute guys in our class, but the dominant number were guys.... the lecturer was nice.. I think we're going to get along just fine... Then was HumComm...Human Communication... ohmygod.... I am so sorry girls... We totally chose the most boring class ever... But i have a feeling we are going to get through this just as fine as we have for all our IS classes.....As i have sms-ed to MJ, the existence of the module itself was stupid...I mean they are really just making normal, simple, every day conversations, complication.... And its only the first class..... =.=
Tomorrow is going to be HOENG the whole day.... horticulture engineering....
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the world will turn WILD.
7:35 PM
11 October 2008
It hasn't been confirmed yet, but im praying hard and as much as i can that we can negotiate and get a deal. I'm really psyched about this and it's been so long. Coming to 5 years. Just thinking about it is making me feel excited, but i don't want to get too excited. Getting my hopes too high up isn't good. I'll just get a heartbreak again. I just don't want history to repeat itself again.
Went to my cousin's place in JB early in the morning today with Mummy.. Took a nap, went to the market, made lunch and dinner then went home. Mummy just wanted to relax at my cousin's place because she feels more relaxed when she's there, rather than at that house.
And i can't believe that guy called my Mummy 'Mama'... I mean come on, we aren't related, i don't even like you, and senang-senang je panggil mak orang lain 'Mama'.. Who does he think he is? My Mummy's son-in-law? *chills up my spine* He's not even my type......
the world will turn WILD.
12:27 AM
05 October 2008
Fuuuu... Just got back from Malaysia.. My family and the cousins balik kampong to some of my granduncles' and grandaunts' houses for Hari Raya... And oh man, i am dead beat!!
Checked into Malaysia on Friday afternoon with family, stayed at cousin's house.. Balik kampong on Saturday morning with all of us fitted into 4 cars... i rode in one of my cousin's car with my lil bro... I think in total we only went to about 4-5 houses because my uncle has work in the evening shift, so we had to go back early.... But the day definitely wasnt over...
Both families decided to go for 2 rounds of bowling at Danga City Mall... But i didnt play, i was just too tired, but it was fun cheering for them and yay-ing to every strikes they made...hahahaha... It was already 11pm plus, and none of us were actually satisfied about going back home.. so we went for karaoke at this K-Box-like place.. i was surprised that the place was kinda packed, considering it was already late... we got ourselves this family-sized room for karaoke and started singing.... this time, i really sang my heart out by singing and screaming and clapping and dancing to all the songs that we were singing.... hahahahha.... i had so much fun that now i'm having a slight cough....ahahahahahhaa......
Oh and i forgot to mention that i ate A LOT when balik kampong... i mean ohmygod lah.... right when we got back to my cousin's place to rest for a while, i immediately headed straight for the toilet! and got in and out 3 times! The stomachache was bearable, but i just couldnt take another bite or look at anymore food, or i'll vomit.....
i am so tired.
the world will turn WILD.
9:08 PM
01 October 2008
Ok firstly, i want to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!! Maaf Zahir dan Batin.. Kalau terkasar bahasa, harap dimaafkan....
So, today has been 1 hectic day... I didnt really got much sleep the night before and i had to wake up early today since its Hari Raya... I always have to wake up early to help my mum with the cooking and cleaning up of the house. Everything basically has tobe done before the guys come back from the Hari Raya prayers at the mosque... Foods this year were the usual... Mummy's oh-so-delicious Sambal Goreng Pengantin, Ketupat, Sambal Ayam, Rendang Daging....Then there's the kueh-kueh.............Fuuuuuu.... You cannot imagine how full i am now....
You must be thinking im really tired because we went to a lot of houses right?? But sadly, no... I am already tired from all the helping around in the house, since all the cousins and relatives were cramped into this house...my grandparents' house... Plus, now most of us are like grown up already, some of us have to squeeze and some had to sit on the floor.... Hahahahaha.........
It was a long day..... I need to catch up on my sleep too.. But i must not miss Lara Croft: Tomb Raider showing on Ch 5 later!! Wahahahaha..................*squeels of a Lara Croft fan*
Oh yeah, if you're wondering what my family wore this year? We didnt buy any new ones, so we compromised by having each and every one of us wear a completely different colour and design.. Daddy wore yellow, Mummy wore pink, i wore red (then changed to black because i was already growing out of the costume, if you know what i mean), and my brothers wore black and green.... Hahahhaa......
the world will turn WILD.
9:26 PM
