21 October 2008
I know i am not the only one in the whole wide world who is suffering, but a lot of times i ask myself, why is God trying to make me go through all this? Don't you think we have suffered enough? Don't we deserve something from being able to survive all this suffering all these years? Why are all these happening to me? Why do i have to go through them? What did i do to deserve them?
I know i may be selfish when i ask those questions. I admit to that.
I always tell myself di sebalik segalanya, ada Hikmahnya...
But when will it come? Am i happy the way i am?
Will there be a happy ending for us?
For so long we have suffered.. I have put up and tolerated so much, the feeling is like i've taken in a bomb and trying to prevent it from exploding out of me... Maybe it's part of my personality to care about others' first before myself. But i can't help it. I am already used to rather make others' happy, even if i'm not.. I didn't care of the consequences.
I have put up a brave front so many times because i don't really like to show others this weak side of me who wants to be cared. It's only when it's too much for me to take, is when tears will start to flow.
Life for me had and will never be a Cinderella story.
It's just too fictional to be happened to an ordinarily average girl like me.
the world will turn WILD.
11:56 PM
