20 November 2009
I am starting to get really stressed about work... I am already rushing through to prepare the subsoil drainage for a lot of the planting holes since the soil is in a bad condition, event day for that site is next Saturday, which is less than 10 days away and we are still far from ready... I don't know whether to say the weather is on our side or not, but the workers don't like to work under the rain..... I hope to get my boots this weekend, so that i can join in the muddy works...
I admit i am learning a lot in my job... I'm still improving my plant ID, i got to learn how to make subsoil drainage, learn how to manage and supervise workers.... I am still trying to overcome my fear of creepy crawlies creeping all over me..... I pray everyday that there will not be any uprooting of any of the huge, tall trees, or I'll have a lot more work than i already have.....
Sometimes its hard when your mind says one thing and your heart says another... i had that problem..... I know a lot of people will say "Just follow your heart", but for me, i tend to do that, and it always doesn't turn out the way i want it...... But at the same time, saying No to the heart can be hard and regretful....and in the end, i'll only end up being indecisive....
sometimes you make me want to say 'i miss you'...
the world will turn WILD.
8:49 PM
